Learn Anew; Become A Child Again

This is the continuation to Music & Dance Is The Heart Of The Soul video, where I exemplify in details on the spiritual path that I intend to take, why I chose that particular spiritual path and why it is imperative for this experiment to include spirituality as part of its experience.

If anything spirituality is the mother that gave birth to science, for they are both a different side to one coin, one cannot exist without the other. One resides in reality and one in fantasy, one is the power of imagination and one is the power of logic, yet both are creative, how does one know which is which, which is the real reality and which is pure fantasy, if there is even such a thing!

Will we ever accept both to be one and the same, or shall we, humanity, forever fight for one to be above the other? Will I prove anything at the end of this experiment? Will I be successful in my theories, which presently seem quite insane?

Will I or Won’t I…. Who Knows??

Music & Dance Is The Heart Of The Soul

My second week, still very tried and still fighting with the Ego’s desire to misdirect me out of my present situation and back to the life that I love and know… My Ego Can Keep On Dreaming….

Continuing with many more thought provoking ideas and point of views, I have now arrived to the world of Artistic expression, though I will only highlight their positive influence in our daily existence, I do promise to revisit them again in the very near future to discuss their positive and their negative influence on our minds, emotions and subconscious…. for indeed they might be the heart of the soul, but they can also be used as the tool of manipulation for the Ego… more on that in a later discussion, but for now here is food for thought…

Enjoy…

IMPORTANT NOTE -EVERYTHING EXPRESSED ON THESE VIDEOS ARE ONLY A MATTER OF A PERSONAL OPINION, TO PROVOKE THE MIND TO THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX – SO PLEASE KEEP AN OPEN MIND.

Pride, Righteousness & Reincarnation

Two middle-aged men die and find themselves outside the gates of heaven.

One man had spent his entire life always doing good deeds, praying, fasting and worshipping God almighty like a good man, and like no other human being, never once doing one thing wrong. He knew he was guaranteed a place in heaven.
While the other never did he recognise or believe in God Almighty, spending his entire life doing every possible misdeed, from murdering, lying, cheating, gambling and hurting mercilessly, to name but a few.

So Imagine the shock of the righteous man, when he saw the unrighteous other in God’s favour as he entered heaven, so rightly upset he asked of his Lord,
“Lord, I who had devoted and dedicated my entire life in serving you and doing only good deeds deserve to be in your kingdom of heaven, so why and how did that unrighteous man gain entry to the same heaven as I?”
The Lord Answered, “Because he repented and gave up the life of unrighteousness to become the divine human being that you had always been.”
“Yes but almost the entirety of his life was spent in the worst type of wrong doings, while I have only ever done right -so how can his faith be equal to mine?”
“It is not,” replied the Lord, “his faith is infinitely higher than yours,”
Shocked at the Lord’s reply, the righteous man asked further, “Why? How did that come to be?”
“Because you who had never tasted or experienced the temptations of his life, who had always been a good righteous man, your faith constant and true -could then never possibly understand how hard it is for a soul to give up all these temptations, in order to be devoted to me alone -such a soul would need 100 times more faith to leave and turn away from such a life of temptation, than a faithful soul who does not know any better for it has never allowed itself to be tempted and therefore its faith never tested -for this reason this man would have more faith than you and would be 100 times more devoted to me”

Such beautiful wisdom unfortunately lost on the ears of the ignorant.

This is a three part video – Please check and watch corresponding videos to this blog,

on my youtube account and cane be accessed via my twitter account “Zsena Kay”.

Open Your Mind

Storm…

There Is A Thing Coming But I Know Not Its Face
Signs Everywhere Disturbing My Peace And Space
Time Has Stood Still Though Restlessness Chase
Comprehension Is Lost Behind Pretty Lace

This Is The Calm Before The Storm, I Know It Well
So Make Your Intent Known, Announce Your Gift From Hell
What Web Of Deceit And Denial Will You Spin Like A Spell
Blessing Rewards After I Tear Down A Holly Tower With The Ringing Of My Bell

Make Your Intent Known, These Emotions Are Too Intense
Feeling Like A Rabbit Caught Behind A Fence
Constantly Searching For Answers When Nothing Makes Sense
Never Reaching Absolute Truth Through Coloured Lens

Yet Under The Full Moon I Sit And Write
Searching For An Answer That Might Be Half Right
That Would Show Your Hidden Sight
For Once The Storm Passes The Heavens Will Open The Gates Of Light

Please check and watch corresponding video to this blog,  my youtube account and can be accessed via my twitter account home page, “Zsena Kay”. Enjoy…

Take Charge Of Your Life

This is the start of preparing the mind and body for the strict activities required for the ‘The Human Balance Experiment’ which is due to start in Jan ’10.

During these preparations I am also introducing the public to my own personal belief systems, opinions, ideals, way of thinking and being, while unfolding slowly my intentions on how and why I concocted and initiated this experiment, in other words what were the primary motivations behind it. It is also my way of introducing the public to the type of personality and character that I am and my real intentions behind this ambitious experiment.

I will discuss in turn everything that I am feeling, processing and whether or not if it is of any benefit to my mind, body and soul. In doing so and in sharing these experiences with everyone, I am hoping and aiming to reach new levels of understanding, being and thinking. I aim to be an inspiration if nothing else, cutting edge and a pioneer for my sex, whether or not I will achieve any of the latter, is still to be seen, but I remain always hopeful and positive.

Please check and watch corresponding video to this blog,

IMPORTANT NOTE: PLEASE KEEP AN OPEN MIND WHEN VIEWING THESE VIDEOS, AS THEY ARE MEANT TO BE THOUGHT PROVOKING. BY VOCING THE IDEAS CONTAINED WITHIN THESE VIDEOS, I AM NOT SUGGESTING THAT THEY ARE TRUE/FALSE OR EVEN RIGHT/WRONG, I AM SIMPLY SUGGESTING TO LISTEN AND THINK… THAT IS ALL.

The Human Balance Experiment

Ok… So many have asked, many had been informed… but only a handful understood what this journey is all about… It is far too complex to put into simple words… for the mind, emotions, body and soul are very complex entities, which to date many expert individuals are still attempting to find and invent the necessary language to express this complexly interactive internal pyramid… Great men exemplify such diverse entities through riddles, metaphors and poetry… all of which can be interpreted in so many different ways.. most of which were not even intended by the author or creator… only a few understand and those few are usually labelled insane by those who don’t…

I have tried to explain it as best as I can, in my own words, through my own experiences and from the knowledge that I already possess… I intend to be thought provoking and at times maybe even down right insolent, but it is done with the best intentions -it is done to provoke your emotions in order to motivate your mind to think outside the box… always remember that this journey is my own and all information expressed and discussed is as seen and expressed through my own eyes and it is only my personal opinion… Do not allow your own ego to rise in blind rage, ultimately there will always be information that might be useful to you and some that may not, yet it might still be useful to another.. take from this only what inspires you and leave behind what your mind disagrees with… That is the golden point.

I think the real purpose and aim of this journey will be better understood through daily actions and discussions, as seen through your eyes, which I intend to share with all of you as I document and upload it every week… All will be uploaded on YouTube at the end of each week.

In the next 24hrs, I will cease all communications, though my networks will be active… I will not be viewing or interacting in any way or form to anyone connected to me directly, whether through friendship, family or otherwise… Not even emergency circumstances, this condition is vital for the success of this journey…

(To watch the two part video, which has been uploaded on my youtube account and you will find the corresponding videos that will highlight the aims of this journey… enjoy)

Don’t Forget To Check My Tweets…

Hey guyz,

Sorry I don’t blog much on here… but I will be super busy from now on working on my latest social psychology experiment, called, “The Human Balance Experiment”.

Please follow my tweets and you will find out more about the concept and the start of preparation… I have already began, so my weekly video blogs will now be uploaded on youtube with a direct link onto my wordpress site…

Enjoy xxx

My Flat Is Almost Finished

In between the dust, sweat and drilling the flat slowly began to take a new image. It was rather challenging to renovate a flat with all its contents still within it, all of which were accumulated over ten years of residing in what was affectionately termed ‘A Walk In Wardrobe Flat’.

However after 6 weeks, the flat was converted into a brand new living space, the amazing feeling that one feels as one enters through the door of a newly refurbished flat, its like opening the door to a new chapter in a book, new path, new life -change.
The mind begins to think differently and becoming more motivated and the emotions are high and happy.

New things are about to happen, for the wind of change has swept through my life and home… now new ideas are born and new perceptions will set a fresh adventure to look forward to.

Let’s see what happens next…

Good Morning World

Today is a great day, I know it’s a great day, because I say so… I am smiling and I will be smiling until I lay my head on the pillow tonight.

It is very strange, for I feel like when I write on this network, I’m actually just talking to myself. Though talking to oneself can be healing at the best of times, but in such a way as this, I feel like I’m talking to the entire universe, to which there are some busy body ants listening and taking every word in.

Anyway, I am currently submitting some more of my written work on Triond, which I’m finding very interesting, for I have my own style of writing, which is very unique to say the least, but I am taking it one step at a time to unleash my creative potential.
Tonight I will be attending the Christian Audigier fine wine & champagne launch in Movida, after attending his fabulous birthday event in FIF Cannes this year, which was one the biggest events of FIF Cannes ’09, where he had a fabulous entertainment show lined up with LIve performances from Lenny K and 50 Cent.

I therefore will look forward to a very interesting and fun packed evening of intrigues and serious shoulder rubbing. Though I’m most likely to also bump into the usual suspects of socialites, party crashers and butt kissers, with a few faces known to me in each of these groups, it is nonetheless always a pleasure to catch up with all of them, as they quickly fill me in on all the latest nightlife gossip of London, while we all get pushed around outside the entrance before finally getting through to the other side of the red robe.

So my girlfriend and I are putting on our fabulous outfits, hair freshly prepared, makeup perfectly applied, Gina shoes dying to be seen, and designer hand bags that scream, ‘move outta my way fool’, because the Ladies have come out to play and are fully intending to paint the town in all shades of red

So I will leave you with this thought, and get back to my day of work and play -until tomorrow, when I will give you the highlights of this evening in minute details.

Until then have a fabo day… Ciao

Is There Anybody Out There

Seriously this is one hell of a site… is there no one reading these posts or what…. hahaahahahaha…

I could write anything & no one would be the wiser….

Then let me talk about something very special, since I am only talking to me, myself and I….

He who broke my heart, my spirit and stole my sun from the sky… he whom I must forget, must forgive and must erase from all my memories… he will never know, never realise and never appreciate the heart that once loved him…

I thought I had seen it all, I thought I had tasted all the different types of love, but in the end, love comes round and slaps you hard in the face…
There you are looking at this person, who neither looks, personality, mind, attitude, lifestyle, background, belief systems nor character were either attractive in the slightest nor commendable… in fact just the sight of this person made your skin crawl with disgust… yet still, you felt this overwhelming emotion and desire that cannot be described by any other name but love!

Your mind ready to explode constantly screaming at you… “WTF… how is it possible… it cannot be… you cannot be in love… look at him, what in the world do you think you are in love with?”

I look long and hard as my higher voice answers my mind back, “I don’t know… all I know is that I want to be by his side no matter where he is and no matter where he goes… for only when I am close to him, only when I am in his embrace, is when I finally feel that I have come home, when I feel happy, when a smile appears on my face… what would you call these feelings, if not love?”
“I would call it insanity -so gather your wits about you for he will never be the man you share your life with,” replied my mind back….

Indeed… he never was and never will be… but my soul has not stopped aching for him, though he is thousands of miles away from me and my aching heart….

Ah well you can’t win them all….. hehehehehehe